Struggling

It's Wednesday and I'm struggling with this week.

The first week is always difficult as counselors adjust and figure out how to actually do all of the things we taught them in staff training. They are late to everything, they look a little frenzied and I have the strong wish that there was a "pause" button and I could just give everyone a second to take a deep breath and collect themselves. We are tight on staff this summer due to the fact that we couldn't find male counselors to save our lives (so we only have 3 of them) and two of the female counselors we hired bailed right before training. So this week, several counselors have cabins on their own, rather than having a co-counselor. That always makes things challenging.

I am still a little bit sick- I can't seem to shake this cough/sore throat and I'm not feeling 100%. This morning, my allergies kicked in, so I took some benedryl and have been walking around in a fog all day.

And I'm still adjusting to having baby X here at camp. I don't love his nanny- she's super sweet and he always seems happy. He smiles when he sees her and she is doing a good job. But she's timid and doesn't come across as very bright. So even though she is taking good care of him, I don't feel confident in her. I have to resist the urge ALL day to go to wherever they are and take him.

I'm just not quite in the groove yet. This is normal, I know this feeling and I know that it won't feel like this forever. We will settle into a routine and I will feel comfortable in my own skin and camp again. Every summer is it's own experience. I just need to put one foot in front of the other until I feel steady.