Out of Sorts

This was a weird week. Okay, no, the week was fine- kids had fun, the weather was perfect, everything went smoothly- but I felt out of sorts for some reason.

The kids were well behaved, but the most entitled, annoying group of demanding children I've ever worked with. The staff were struggling with them and I couldn't seem to help. Misbehaving kids, homesickness, cabin conflict- I am great with all of those situations, but it wasn't any of those. These kids were just really snotty and the staff just generally didn't like them as people. There weren't any problems for me to fix and I couldn't seem to motivate them or put anything in perspective. It was all just really weird.

We also had a volunteer nurse who was new this year and she just didn't understand camp. She didn't like the dirt, thought I was too young, had opinions about the staff and overall, I didn't like her. I pretty much spent the whole week wishing for her to go away. I attempted to talk with her- we had a 2 hour conversation and she asked lots of great questions and I had a chance to explain many aspects of how camp runs. But she still didn't get it and didn't seem to like me and yet, she talked a lot about "next year" which I found surprising since she didn't seem to be happy with her experience.

The first week of camp was so rainy that the whole week's schedule was changed and everything was different. This week should have been smooth, but we made some overall schedule changes and it made things feel a little hectic. I think the changes are for the best and I was glad I made them, but between the schedule and changed staff positions, I started to feel like I didn't know what I was doing. I felt like I was coming across as if I was making things up as I went along, despite the fact that changes were for the best and came after a lot of discussion, planning and thought. I'm hoping that this weekend will be a good change to "re-group" and get myself feeling a little more grounded.