Crabby

I think the main reason why this job is difficult is because I am too sensitive to be in a leadership role. I take things too personally and am too eager to please every person I come in contact with. As summer ends and I look ahead, I am not sure if I will soon be getting a new boss or if I will be the new person in charge, and while I am sometimes eager to take over and rule this place, today I am thinking I might not be ready. Maybe I still need a boss to be the buffer between the public and my fragile ego.

Whenever you work with people, no matter how hard you work, how much effort you put in, some people will walk away pleased and some will walk away complaining. I have a difficult time with that, because I have poured my heart and soul into this camp, giving up sleep, personal time, missing my family and friends, and working 15-17 hours per day, almost every day. So when someone complains, I wonder how I could possibly do anything different in order to make them happy.

And so today, I am excessively crabby. I have worked hard and sacrificed a lot and I have been met with a steady stream of complaints. I am sick to death of apologizing over and over. People are never happy, and if they are, those people don't make the effort to give feedback. I'm tired and ready to go home.