Spiders

I want to be a Buddhist. All of that meditation and inner peace and what have you. It appeals to me.

But the spiders here are the size of hamsters and every time I kill one, I think, "these are just too substantial to not matter." So much for loving all living things and not causing harm to anything.

The spider I had to run from this morning was easily 2 inches from one leg to the other and I was concerned that if I tried to squish it, it would just reach from under the shoe I was going to hit it with and grab it away from me. So I ran away instead.

I'm not even afraid of spiders usually, but I have never seen spiders like these. HUGE. HUGE.