Getting Through

Camp is not fun without staff, kids, programming, or sunshine. I thought being here would give me 2 months head start on organizing and getting ready for camp. But it has rained the majority of the time I have been here and all I have wanted to do is sit on the couch.

I broke up with my boyfriend shortly before coming to camp and even though I was the one who ended the relationship, I have been struggling to find peace with my decision. Endless days of nothing to do but think hasn't exactly helped and I think it's possible I've been close to losing my mind on multiple occasions.

For a few weeks, I was also fighting with my brother, which was actually worse than the end of my relationship. My brother is one of my most favorite people and not having him to talk to regularly and being mad, combined with endless hours of thinking... bad news.

I know that the gray rainy weather and my gray mood won't last forever- summer will be here soon. So I've just been trying to be nice to myself and patient and understanding that sometimes there are rough patches and I just have to get through it until it gets better.

I've spend endless hours on the phone with my best friend and with my mom. I've spent a lot of time with my puppies. I'm just getting through the in-between time right now. And I see glimmers of the sun, so I know that pretty soon, it will be better....