Right before I left for camp in May, I was anxious and dragged my feet packing and felt hesitant to come to camp. I was nervous about the summer ahead, didn't know what to expect, didn't want to leave my roommates, my house or my life. I got to camp and spent the month of May working hard with A, A and S and was enjoying myself. As staff training approached, I once again started feeling anxious and hesitant, not sure what to expect of the new staff.
And now it is the end of the summer, and that same anxiety, same hesitating to move forward, same nervousness of what to expect is here. It has been a fantastic summer and while I am exhausted, I don't want it to end. I spent the summer playing in the woods, but now I have to go back to the office where a messed up budget of a struggling camp, clueless board members and a mile long to do list await my return. Couldn't it just be summertime forever? Popsicles at the camp store, s'mores and songs by the campfire, sunshine, adventure, brainstorming sessions and constant laughter...
I will miss the staff terribly. We weren't peers and I worked hard to maintain a boundary between supervisor and friend. But they have become my family away from home and I will be sad to leave them. We have been together all day, every day, creating memories, sharing adventures, laughter and frustration. Each summer is a unique experience and only the people who were here sharing it with me can truly understand what summer 2009 was all about. It will be difficult to leave them and not have someone right there all the time, sharing inside jokes, understanding looks without words, and relating to the exact feelings and thoughts we all share because of our bond from the summer. I will leave, the same way I arrived, dragging my feet and sad to switch seasons.
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