Support

Why do people blog? It's kind of a weird thing to do. I have kept a journal for years and years, all of my private thoughts and venting and secrets. I like to write because it helps me process through things, but the idea of a blog is strange because it assumes that there is someone out there who is actually interested in all of that dribble that I let tumble out of my head, onto paper. This summer, I was SO unbelievably busy I didn't have time to write in my journal or keep in touch with my family and friends, so I started a blog to keep in touch. I could type in short bursts, whenever I had a calm moment in between craziness and eventually would write out everything that was going on.

Secretly I imagine myself as fabulous and interesting as Carrie Bradshaw and that my fans are hanging off my every word. In reality, I know that my "fans" are my mom and my best friend X, and most of the time, they have already heard me rant and rave about whatever it is that I write about. But a girl can dream, right. And so I blog. I blog, and I imagine greatness.

But it turns out I have readers (thanks by the way!). I've had a few tough days at camp these last couple of weeks and all of the frustration, anger, and worry came out as I typed about the challenges. And a funny thing happened. People responded. I received emails from several people that I didn't even know read my blog. They offered advice and suggested ideas for me to try, and they also provided me with encouragement and kind words. They let me know that I'm not alone in this, and reminded me that what I'm doing matters. It was extremely meaningful to me and I can't even begin to express my gratitude. I used to work for a large organization, with many co-workers in many departments and at other locations. I am definitely a person who enjoys working as a team and takes strength and encouragement from those around me. I still haven't completely adjusted to my empty office, so it was nice to have some response.

And last week was outstanding. Many of the projects I'd been working on finally came together and I met with the Board President and VP and they were so supportive and excited about my work. I was busy and successful and I feel re-energized and excited to start new projects and move forward, closer to the summer every day.